Demons

it's a new year, everybody, and i've noticed something.

i used to have this thing. i dont know what to call it. but i'd be sitting, standing, laying, minding my business, watching tv, doing work, etc. and i would see something out the corner of my eye. it would scare the living mess out of me. my heart would stop, my insides would drop, and my head would pound. i'd quickly look to my right (it was almost always on my right) to see if it was what i thought. but alas, every time it would scurry away before i got a good look.

and what did i think it was?
a demon.

all i really saw was a shadowy, dense, dark figure crawling on the wall, or through the door...but in my spirit i knew it was a demon. say what you like, think what you like. i am not making this up, and yes that's what i think it was.

so, the thing that i've noticed?
it's gone.

the past few months, i've been pretty silent on this blog. part of it was just being busy, as i've crafted several posts in my head that i will post on here soon. but part of it is also because i have been learning, growing, changing. i've been having some soul altering changes, learning more about DeAnna, and changing who i am. i've messed up, been successful, encountered new things, fell down, been confused, lost, found, happy...you get the picture. but most importantly, ive faced (i believe) ALL of my past demons.

which has been scary.

some things i've resolved and some things i understand are gonna affect me the rest of my life (and im kind of nervous about that). but i've faced them all head on and come to terms with it all.

so maybe, thats why they don't come to visit me in the middle of the day anymore =)