like mother, like daughter

i have always been a hustler.

when i was little, around 5 or 6, the age when people start asking "what do you want to be when you grow up?" i remember what i wanted to be. i wanted to be an author who illustrated her own books and a dance teacher/dancer. as i got older, i still wanted to be an author/illustrator, but i had changed my other occupation to  fashion designer and stylist. no matter what, every time i thought about or said what i wanted to be, it was always 3-5 things.

middle school and high school, i did: track, cross country, dance, cheerleading, basketball (combinations of 3 different sports at once), not to mention the like 5 clubs that i was in and had positions in. i just could not sit still.

it happened when i came to howard too. i wanted to double major/minor because i COULD NOT decide what i wanted to do. and i was involved in organizations. smh.

now here i am (by the grace of God), and i have finally finalized what it is that i am supposed to be doing for an occupation and working towards that goal. although my aim in life is to please God and give honor to Him in whatever i do, i believe i now know how i will be doing that in the world.

and how is that, do you ask? of course, it is not one thing lol.

here i am, wanting to start my own event management and graphic design company. i am earning my degrees and certifications towards that as well as gaining experience (that is, i am planning events and getting paid for doing design work). i also do hair at low prices, because i feel that people should feel the best about themselves at all times, no matter how broke they are lol. and i am also babysitting this wonderful young woman, which points to the tugging i have in my spirit of God telling me that i need to mentor young girls (for my own spirit and for theirs as well).

im doing all of this and wonder why i havta hustle so much.

then i look at my mother.

as i get older, i notice more and more of my parents in me. as i look at dixie, i realize she was always a hustler too. in college, taking care of kids and running track. married, in school, with a job, taking care of kids (some not even her own), with a side hustle as a seamstress. even now, dixie is still hustling.

it was always my dream growing up (and now) to provide for my mother so she wouldnt have to go so hard. but today i realized, even if i did provide for her so she wouldnt havta do anything but lay up all day, you know what she would be doing?

sewing for any and everybody; babysitting everybody and they daughter's kids; cooking for everybody; planning events for people's special occasions; tutoring children after school....etc.

and you know what? im fine with that.

and im fine with the fact that imma hustla, imma imma hustla homie! 

just like my mama.