Saturday, May 7, 2011

back in the day...

 so back in the day i used to have a myspace. and i just discovered it tonight. lol. and i realized that i have been struggling with this beauty thing for a while. check out these two posts i put up consecutively on myspace. i realize that this is something that i have been needing to address most of my life. maybe one day i will stop being confused [one day thinking im beautiful, the next not knowing, the next convinced that im not pretty nor womanly, physically that is]. anyways, here goes old deanna:

 

(1 feb 2006, 1:43am)  pickles, rain, tears=perfection

life is full of pleasure and pain
both disappointments.

i love the rain
i hate tears
i love pickles

i find myself eating pickles on a rainy day
crying

why?
life is so sour and sweet, or sweet and sour
salty

life is like the taste of pickles and tears on a rainy day

revelations.
come.to.me.
on these rare occasions

imnevergonnalikewhoiam.      Salty
dontnow.                         
neverwill.                               Sour
deal with it

a poem:
the man said to the universe
i exist
the universe replies
i fail to see the point

i saw this girl at a seafood restaurant this weekend. she was so perfect. milk chocolate, smooth, clear skin, perfect curvy shape, pretty eyes with long eyelashes, REAL wavy jet black waist length hair, perfect teeth, lips, voice

perfect
gorgeous
random
unknown
i love her

and i hate myself for not being her

(16 mar 2006, 1:09 pm)  that girl


Remember when i wrote that blog...

and i mentioned this girl
who was beautiful and sexy
and just damn near perfect

i saw her again...
youd never guess where

in the mirror

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